12/25/25: [drunk]
12/22/25: / my work place is a freakshow
12/20/25: [dreamt i was late for work, that sucked]
12/19/25: \ head full of lead
12/18/25: [throat swollen and dry]
12/17/25: [much anxiety from work today]
12/16/25: ○:: hands cramping from too much crochet but new pirate show im watching is pretty gay so its fine
12/12/25: ○:: thinking about the white rabbit
12/12/25: [squeaky clean kitchen]
12/04/25: [packing]
12/03/25: [really missing my friend today. sometimes it feels like he is dead.]
12/01/25: [there is never a good enough reason to be awake]
11/30/25: [so not good]
11/25/25: [reeling]
11/24/25: [perpetually anxious about not making it home]
11/11/25: [took out a chunk of my hair trying to untangle a knotted hairband. ow.]
11/07/25: i just realized my site is over a year old now !!
10/31/25: [been on the kitchen floor since i woke up]
10/30/25: [learned helplessness, now i cant unlearn it.]
10/15/25: writing innumerable emails seriously drains me. its like all my energy for creative writing is going into these nonsense emails instead of my own work. then im burnt out before i even start.
10/12/25: i finally got new RAM for my old PC !! so much easier to code on keyboard and not a fucking ipad screen
07/29/25: not dead got displaced from B.C. and had to couch hop back in the U.S. for a little while. i get keys to my new place on the 1st tho, so things are going up
04/04/25: jane eyre is the most boring book i have ever read. goddamn.
03/31/25: can the fucking depression elves leave me alone for one month???
03/16/25: i missed a tshot and it landed me three days in bed with a period, fml. period havers are so brave.
03/04/25: im trying to make a habit out of editing my written work more so that I can upload it here, why are words so much harder to post than drawings (i feel like everyone is looking at me!)
02/27/25: reminder to myself to take the picture of the drawing before glueing it into the journal
02/26/25: trying not to seek out happiness, i know i have to do things when i am sad, its just difficult.
12/14/24: its really fucking cold when you're at the top of a 900ft mountain.
10/22/24: i exist exclusively in cyberspace.
10/17/24: coding, writing, drawing, all like drugs to me.
09/05/24: my mind disintegrates into electrical signals and i become one with my computer.
08/07/24: my wisdom tooth is moving again, so much pain, can feel my teeth crawling over my gums, raking across them like hot coals, readjusting my bite, giving me a crooked smile.
08/05/24: sinewy lines of code pour onto my desk from my eyeballs.
08/03/24: gore plastered angel.